wat a DOWN day~~~

y ppl always not thankful for wat is given n always ask for more? demanding is fine for me yet over demanding is another case~ u ppl juz dun understand wat kind of stress n thought i hav n had from before until now~ u ppl juz think of monetary method can solve all types of problem? come on, tis world is so unbalance n unequal~ dun expect wat u gav out wif comes back to u in total~ dun keep ask for payback as things doesn't always run according to ur plan~ dun take it for granted as in wat's in ur mind wil b others mind too~ u DUN WAN doesn't mean others DUN WAN ok! think of the BIG PICTURE as in Ms. Janet told me prviously during my management training program~ dun always make decision for others before seek permission from others bcoz u r not always RIGHT wif ur decision~ u dun wan go back visit grandma den dat is ur **** thought but dun influence da other ppl for not visit-ing~ YES, u do hav da right for not going but dun influence others as well~ u think u r ELDERS so u can do anything u wan den let others help u to tapao wat ever sin left by u?

no enuff manpower in shop, even though i know nothing bout da working skill but yet i offer to help out~ bcoz i'm too free in home so i offer to help as in hope to lighten da work load~ but in da end, it is a wrong move as in scold days by days~ come on how much do u all expect i can do as a freshman in urs industry~ even though i watched u all doing all da work since i was young but those skill needed work, u all think is easy to master by 1 or 2 days?

i hate myself~
i hate myself as a member in tis family~
i hate myself for incapable to make u all proud~
i hate myself for unable to b a multi-purpose robot~

how i wish i could die in de next minute~